apa yang sebenarnya aku nak? apa yg aku kejarkan sgt dalam sphera gila ini? kosong. lihat org dan tiru, lagi dan lagi dan lagi? bosan & memenatkan. sampai bila.. taburkan kepuasan pada yg lain lebih menenangkan, mungkin.
soalan yg selalu buat aku gagal.
Aku belum pernah cipta sejarah lari daripada orang. Orang yang lari lintang pukang dari aku. dem, fakap. Benda gila nama cinta. Jangan tiup buihbuih gula kalau lepas itu kau nak ludah. Sekali aku pegang, aku simpan sampai masuk tanah. Ini janji aku.
My family is in chaos. Fvck yeah, I am the eldest. And i know nothing on what to do, how lame is that? Darn me for not even trying. Does anyone go through the same situation? Answer me moron. I can't imagine what will happen if i'm not here for two years. I'm in a house called home, but i do not feel like this is home. what's wrong? I do not know why! My feet wanted so badly to just go out there to a place that i now nothing about. i want to travel. yes travel. Please, before i have to go THERE! i need to see places. Money is a BIG FAT problem for everything. That's why i hate money. Somehow my mouth are locked from saying what i feel, and it happens all the time. that's why people don't really know. Including them. Do you? People tend to see me as a don't-really-care-about-anything-and-everything-is-a-rainbow kind of person. No i'm not! i hate being a serious person. I hide everything and act as a joker. I'm a good pretender right? Believe me, everything is fake. Shut.
i need a good sleep, world. Don't give me the same dream like last night. Please.
it ain't easy for me as well. hey, we're in the same boat moron! it just that, we are seating far away from each other in the boat. my eyes can capture yours, can you?
i wish the picture is taken by you. well.. as you said, one day..maybe..one day.. if only our legs are strong enough to stand at the same spot regardless the chaos.
i hate the fact that i'm still hiding beneath everything. Like a rat covered by the ground. nahh, i'm still stronger than the tiger, wooff woof, the tiger didn't eat me when i was next to him yesterday. Puffwerful.
when there are too many mistakes, i'm afraid.. and i'm really scared we are going to be drowned in it. At that moment, memories in our head will be replaced by enormous vacuity and our souls stop beating. It turns white, we.. we begin to be an unknown to each other. nothing matter anymore, nothing.
Daripada emosi seratus peratus gembira terus jatuh merundum ke kosong. Apa kau cakap memang sgtsgt betul. Cuma aku tak suka bila kesalahan ditelunjukkan hanya pada org lain. Diri sendiri ada cermincerminkan? Org tu yang mata kasar nampak tak bersalah pun, aku yg mmg terbentuk mcm ini. Entahlah labu, aku kan jagung muda lagi. Mulut aku belum masin lagi, garam pun baru sikit aku makan.