tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-73381229182111276472024-02-20T05:48:40.666+13:00This is my heart.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.comBlogger302125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-44969895730860014002018-05-19T05:42:00.002+12:002018-05-19T05:42:41.542+12:00#Chapter 1: 2018Things has not much change from the last time. I've been thinking for so long now, and it's already 2018. One thing for sure, I'm not getting any younger and I've wasted almost 20 years of my life.<br />
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Kuala Lumpur: A place I've never once thought I would step my feet on and now look, who's working and living here for almost 4 years now, me. God's plan. To be honest, I never like it.<br />
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This love shit is getting more and more complicated.<br />
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I'm here typing cause I'm bored.<br />
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Not much of progressing in life.<br />
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Waiting is such a hard thing to do.<br />
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Praying hard to move in to Melaka by this June. I know HE is listening to my prayer.<br />
Chiow.<br />
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-A<br />
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<br />kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-91383332906244353492017-05-27T06:28:00.000+12:002017-05-27T06:28:09.056+12:00Life Changing #101I am laying down on my bed right now, thinking of a whole lot of things. Everything is fucking my mind again like it used to be long time ago. My issues, I have problems. I know I have it laying and hiding behind my head. I want to change so bad, to be a better person.<br />
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But,<br />
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Something is holding me back, something I'm unsure of, like a monster holding my hands and covering my eyes not letting me do what I must do. I'm angry with everything around me without any reason. I'm annoyed with every single mistakes that people do. I've become a negative ball that rolls around spreading toxic vibe to everyone. I want to hide in a place that nobody knows. <span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-size: 15px;"><i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><b>Helft mir...</b></span></i></span><br />
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kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-71063908598045737682015-03-07T03:31:00.001+13:002015-03-07T03:31:29.140+13:00#272Is it worth it boy?<br />
to love another and risk your girl.<br />
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<br />kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-36153493958532596552014-03-03T18:35:00.005+13:002015-03-07T03:32:38.699+13:00#271Digging through all the old stuff makes me so amazed with you. Everything that you have done (or doing) can't be seen through the naked eyes. But I know you are doing it and keeping it all to yourself. We are all praying for better days ahead. May all your wish come true, love. Believe in Him. Keep on praying.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-39850452539779915082014-02-28T18:28:00.000+13:002014-03-03T18:39:46.816+13:00#I have always wanted to write. Something meaningful, something sweet or just anything that is happening around me. Maybe I should start all over again. Seems like I have abandoned it for a very long time. I probably going to write something a day, anything about him till the day I couldn't write anymore.<br />
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Kuman, xxokuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-66619108106902856582014-01-22T08:30:00.001+13:002014-01-22T08:30:40.290+13:00#270<i>Two years ago. </i><br />
He is happier everytime he sees her. He writes all those pretty stuff about her, like he loves her more than anything. He misses her like she's the only one existed in this world.<br />
<i>Two years ago.</i><br />
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I guess... all the mistakes that she and he had done were to be blamed. Those endless pain, sick memories that cannot be erased. We wish we are robot, so we the robot can permanently erased everything. No.<br />
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I miss you, love.<br />
<br />kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-68811232431000226752013-12-16T19:02:00.000+13:002013-12-16T19:02:31.910+13:00Two.Packed your stuff, grab your bag and go! Life is too short to delay things to do, darling.<br />
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Our Penang trip is done.<br />
Filling up our jar with memories and happiness.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-62924287857534490612013-12-01T06:10:00.000+13:002013-12-01T06:10:42.172+13:00One. Let's move around and see the world, wanderers!<br />
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Move your feet.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-13721510370039278642013-09-03T16:23:00.000+12:002013-09-03T16:23:50.351+12:00#269Daripada kosong itu kita cipta sesuatu.<br />
Kita cipta hidup daripada kekosongan itu.<br />
Cipta perasaan.<br />
Cipta hidup diantara dua kekosongan.<br />
Dan kita hidup didalamnya.<br />
Bahagia.<br />
Tapi apa rasa itu boleh kekal sebegitu? Kataku 'Tidak'.<br />
Didalam hidup itu kita sediakan satu ruang.<br />
Ruang untuk berkongsi semuanya.<br />
Kita semai ruang itu biar ia penuh dengan kehidupan.<br />
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Malangnya, ruang itu selalu terbiar.<br />
Kekosongan. Penuh habuk. Penuh kesedihan. Kosong.<br />
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<br />kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-26590448357693078702013-08-16T04:20:00.003+12:002013-08-16T04:20:50.488+12:00#268"Kerana sifat semulajadi burung ingin hidup bebas, tidak boleh dikurung jasadnya apatah lagi pandangan dan pemikirannya."<br />
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Dan 'burung' itu boleh jadi apa sahaja.<br />
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">#akupenat :(</span>kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-7323121221697499422013-07-31T05:12:00.002+12:002013-07-31T05:12:55.976+12:00#267Pada angin semalam yang asyik menyapa, apa mahu mu sayang?<br />
Ah. Aku hilang kata.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-89923006765138936852013-05-17T00:49:00.001+12:002013-05-17T00:49:43.033+12:00#266<div style="text-align: justify;">
Bagi aku perkara yang paling celaka bila kau di halang buat apa yang kau mahu.</div>
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Kau tak boleh macam ini sebab sekian sekian. </div>
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Kebebasan kau itu cuma permainan untuk mereka yang punya kuasa.</div>
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Jika kau ingkar kau akan dihalau keluar, kau tak layak di sini.</div>
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Terlalu liar dan keras kepala untuk berada dalam kalangan mereka yang 'berilmu'.</div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">"Eh aku peduli apa?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">"Kau siapa mahu atur dan susun peraturan dalam hidup aku?" </span></div>
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Aku punya cita untuk menyampaikan ilmu dengan cara aku.</div>
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Manusia kecil itu perlu dibimbing bukan dipaksa mengikut.</div>
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Biar aku hias hidup aku sendiri wahai manusia bongkak! Celaka.</div>
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kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-73668471923803696452013-05-15T03:35:00.002+12:002013-05-15T03:35:34.609+12:00#SepatuKayuApa langit akan bagi jawapan dan apa suatu masa itu akan tiba.<div>
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kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-63598702246858683952013-05-04T05:41:00.001+12:002013-05-04T05:41:37.384+12:00#265Aku tak suka ditindas, tidak kira siapa kau. Titik.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-15662433516264925732013-05-01T06:40:00.002+12:002013-05-01T06:41:24.295+12:00#264<div style="text-align: right;">
We are hollow inside,</div>
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Pretending to be happy and carelessly floating in the air.</div>
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<i><span style="font-size: xx-small;">"Murah sungguh harga nyawa-nyawa manusia pada mereka sehingga sanggup bertumpahan darah semata untuk merebut kuasa."</span></i><br />
<i><span style="font-size: xx-small;">"Entah untuk apa dan demi siapa."</span></i><br />
<br />kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-85768595352916106532013-04-29T04:55:00.002+12:002013-04-29T04:56:13.719+12:00#263Say, "I'll stop depending on you."<br />
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Stop.</div>
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Repeat. Repeat.</div>
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"But how can you call it love when you are being by yourself, alone. There."</div>
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Say, "I'll stop depending on you."</div>
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Repeat. </div>
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Say, "I'll stop depending on you."</div>
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Stop.</div>
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"I want to scream my lungs out, it hurts".</div>
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Say, "I'll stop depending on you."</div>
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Repeat.</div>
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Repeat.</div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>"Can I cry?" </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>"But your tears will solve nothing, hun. It'll just ruined your pretty face." </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>"My tears are my instant happines... I'm sincerely hopeless."</i></span></div>
kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-65956885393690507892013-04-28T03:41:00.000+12:002013-04-28T03:41:01.208+12:00#262No matter how many promises you were be given, always remember,<br />
The person is just another human, who never know whether the promises may be fulfilled.<br />
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Be careful.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-5373820727080466182013-04-23T17:25:00.000+12:002013-04-23T17:25:06.886+12:00#261Thanks for making her life as wonderful as it can be and leaving me at the most miserable situation,<br />
while<br />
you are still mine.kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-24109321367229650212013-04-16T00:53:00.004+12:002013-04-16T00:53:41.910+12:00#260<div style="text-align: right;">
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">Manisnya mulutmu lelaki.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">Cukup manis untuk melirikkan senyuman di bibir.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">Malang, ianya hanya untuk ditapau, kumpul dan simpan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">Buat bekalan tekak bila aku laparkan senyuman sendiri.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;">haha.</span></div>
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kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-67518088862929132162013-04-10T13:48:00.001+12:002013-04-10T13:48:11.602+12:00#259"Senyumlah hati senyumlah.Senyum cuma senyum."kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-3562501918497630842013-04-06T07:00:00.004+13:002013-04-06T07:00:55.567+13:00#258Hey kekasih,<br />
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Bila kita mahu senafas?kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-39066849879683880042013-03-29T06:32:00.001+13:002013-03-29T06:32:41.764+13:00#257<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Things have been really hard these days. The final year, the money problem, making decision, babysitting, long-distance relationship, parent, family, skin.. I just keep it invisible, keep my mouth shut, keep calm.. as though everything is fine. But the truth is...<br />
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><i>Pray for me. Wish me luck.</i></span>kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-80529803992021015612013-03-18T16:22:00.001+13:002013-03-18T16:22:28.762+13:00#256<div style="text-align: center;">
Rindu bau sana.</div>
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kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-6769616628587116902013-03-13T23:20:00.000+13:002013-03-13T23:20:44.590+13:00#255Tatap alunan hembusan nafas kau pun sudah cukup membahagiakan.<br />
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<i><span style="font-size: xx-small;">"Aku memang gila."</span></i>kuman.http://www.blogger.com/profile/01504160075671093283noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7338122918211127647.post-9849827074445765022013-03-11T20:17:00.000+13:002013-03-11T20:17:13.961+13:00#254<br />
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Sayang itu macam gula gula ke? </div>
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lama-lama manisnya akan hilang begitu sahaja,</div>
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atau macam senyuman, sedikit pudar dimamah usia tetapi manisnya tetap sama. </div>
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