Life Changing #101

I am laying down on my bed right now, thinking of a whole lot of things. Everything is fucking my mind again like it used to be long time ago. My issues, I have problems. I know I have it laying and hiding behind my head. I want to change so bad, to be a better person.

But,

Something is holding me back, something I'm unsure of, like a monster holding my hands and covering my eyes not letting me do what I must do. I'm angry with everything around me without any reason. I'm annoyed with every single mistakes that people do. I've become a negative ball that rolls around spreading toxic vibe to everyone. I want to hide in a place that nobody knows. Helft mir...